I am thinking about something my writing teacher said:
"Tibetan Buddhists say that a person should never get rid of their negative energy, that negative energy transformed is the energy of enlightenment, and that the only difference between neurosis and wisdom is struggle. If we stop struggling and open up to accept what is, that neurotic energy naturally arises as wisdom, naturally informs us and becomes our teacher..."
"I let the old nagging blue feeling fall all around me and I didn't grab it. It kept falling and the space opened up--big space, the space I used to be scared of, that told me I was nothing, that made me clutch at my life. Now, yes, it was true--I was nothing, but not separate, not alone. I didn't struggle, so I merged with everything around me: kids, Tootsie Pops, the sage, couples in tee-shirts and Reeboks. My life felt jolly and open. Nothing can stop me, can freeze me."
This is where I am today...my thoughts holding me just above that wise, creative flame. Where are yours taking you?